Smart Boy

So I talked to the little guy about the Brianna situation. I swear he acted like a teenager. This was the convo

Me: So.... tell me about Brianna. What's going on with that?
(Blushes and then shruggs like a teenager)
Me: You know you can talk to me. Wht happened with that?
R: I don't know... nuthin
Me: Is that your friend
R: Nope
Me: You can be her friend if you want.
R: I don't want to be her friend.
Me: Was she your girlfriend?
R: Noooooo. She's not my girlfriend. She's not my friend. And I don't want her to be my friend.

I'm glad homie saw the drama and dropped chick like a hot potato
That's my boy!

My lil' Don juan

Do you remember the first time you ever had a crush? A true I want that to be my boyfriend/girlfriend crush? I think I might have been 5 or 6. Chad Thomas. We used to hold hands at the family cookouts and look at the city lights. It was so romantic. No kissing or any fresh talk. Just hand holding and talking.

My son has started already. My OES sister has a daughter, Mia who he was smitten with from day one. Well the other night he asked me what a friend of mine's last name was and I said "Brown". So he then repeats Brown several times and says "Mia's my brown sugar." (I think he got that from Max & Ruby - Brown sugar apples sauce put it in the oven....) I laughed. But homeboy has actually begun to call her Brown Sugar like it's her name. So Mia's mom called me and I told her we were going to the movies. She asked if her and Mia could come. We went to Friday's first to get a bit. While we were there me and my Sis were talking and I realize these 2 preschoolers have turned this into a romantic dinner. The waiter came and tell me why homie tried to order for her. Talkin about "You gonna get the green juice Brown Sugar". I'm listening in on their conversations and hear "Your my best boyfriend" and "I love you Brown Sugar". So after the movie we get in our cars I drive of and homeboy is QUIET. He is never quiet. I ask what's wrong and he said I wasn't ready to leave Mia. I want to go see the alien movie with her. And I remembered that feeling in my TEENAGE years of not wanting to part after seeing my crush and I'm like homie is 4 going through this. Insane!

So I drop him off this morning and I hear his teacher say to a little girl "Stop hiding behind your mother. That boy's not even thinking about you" So I'm like "What's going on? Is he mean to her?" And the teacher and the mother give each other looks and the teacher says "We had to seperate them. They were very close but then she started get possesive and fighting the other girls in class over him." I'm dumbfounded. First of all b/c they had to "seperate" my child from another child and didn't speak to me about it. Second of all cause my 3 year old has girls fighting over him. Then the girls mother says "Yeah she talked about him constantly at home and always uses his name for the letter R when we do the alphabet." And she's like did he talk about her a lot?" I was like "Ummmmm what's her name? Must be Imani?" Nope. Brianna. Had no idea about Brianna.

He really needs to take it down cause I'm not trying to be nobody's grandma in my 40's. My best friend is 32 and just became a grandma. NO SIR! Not me.

Here's my little guy when he got into the baby powder

Positively Back!

I haven't written in a while b/c I felt like I was being SO NEGATIVE. So I waited until I had some nice things to say.



OK so I wanted to tell you all how in love I am. It's so weird when you get to the point in a relationship that every now and then you fall head over heals for the person. Like you always LOVE them, sometimes you may not necessarly LIKE them. Sometimes you do. But then sometimes you re-fall-in-love. And it may last 1 week or 3 months or however long... but you feel like you did in the beginning. Butterflies and all. I love it when that happens. So I'm in deep deep love again and can't wait until he gets home tonight. One way I can tell when I'm in re-love is my cooking. When Dinner is bangin' and plates are being damn near licked clean, I'm in love. I swear. When I'm in like it's edible, When I'm not liking him so much it's either disgusing or nothing at all. But when I'm in love... WATCHOUT! So needless to say I can't wait for dinner. I cooked a chicken stroganoff in the crock pot and it's perfect for cold nights like tonight. Last night I cooked for him 3 times. His Sunday dinner by 3pm then Late Evening snack and late night snack. Oh I love that man.

Oh and my son said the sweetest thing. The other night I was in deep thought about life so I asked him "Are you happy? Like truly truly happy" And he smiled and said "Yes" and I said "Why are you happy?" And he said "Cause you're loving me." And I really expected to get an answer about toys. I mean he's 3 years old (well 4 next week). But he gave me a hint that what I try to do is working. I just try to make sure he knows he is loved. If a person feels loved I think they can do anything. They have a confidence about them that is unstoppable. I mean many things positive and negative fuel a person's desire to succeed, but I want to give him all the positive fuel that I can. And it's working. He gets it. So I feel good about my mission as a mother and my progress thus far.

So that's the little update on my life...